Today is the one year Anniversary of the rest of my life. So; I guess I’m one year young.
It was noon a year ago that I thought I was fat, happy and healthy. Ten minutes later I found out I was just fat. The Prognosis; 3 months to live – unless I subjected myself to four months of Chemo (and then another 15 days of RadioTherapy – which I didn’t know about…) But; you’ve heard all this before.
An Italian friend of mine (Andrea Pambianchi of Fitness Network Italia) was launching an Educational Cruise from Rome to Barcelona the day I was admitted into hospital to begin the treatments. I was supposed to be on that Cruise. In a week – I will be... I’m one of the Presenters on the One Convention Cruise (along with Adrian Marks, Casey Conrad and Fred Hoffman – with Special Guest Rob Landers…) In perspective: I’m not supposed to be there or anywhere (on this plain of existance.)
To get through all of those hours lying in a Hospital bed being poisoned – one of the things I needed to do was to think about what I was going to do if I lived. One of those things was to go on the Cruise. Another was to see my son; Ian, graduate as a PhD recipient (he leaves on the 26th from Florida to move to Denver to begin his Doctorate in Music Education from the University of Colorado.) Obviously, this means I need to live another 2 1/2 years.
In April; the tests run were inconclusive. The Doctor literally said she didn’t know whether the Cancer was in remission or still lurking somewhere in my gut. But, she did say: “Enjoy life!” Now, I’ve never been the most active man. I would travel quite a bit (if you call being active – travelling a thousand miles to go to work, then I was…). I enjoy a cocktail or two, I like good food, good company and laughing a bit (often at myself) and making a difference (normally for my clients.) So, when I got this prescription I realised that my life has to change. But first; I decided to take it a bit easy. It’s been a tough year! So, I’ve enjoyed just staying at home – I actually live in a pretty cool place in the UK (www.millhouse-hitcham.co.uk). I got my 68 Chevy out of storage and it’s on the grounds. Unfortunately, most of the time the weather has been crap. But; I’m alive! Every day I wake up is another day I didn’t think I’d have to live.
I actually worked a little bit with a Spanish Company at FIBO (April – Cologne, Germany) and Elevate (May – London, England.) Also in May I went to visit an old Client in Tampere, Finland (didn’t think I’d see that city again.) In June I travelled and worked in Sofia, Bulgaria with another client and gave a short presentation at an Indoor Climbing Conference. Now, July will see me in Italy and Spain and August will see me return to Finland. BUT; I’m not the Doug I used to be. I don’t think I’m going to be able to continue – even though I love what I do. When somebody asks me what I do: my normal response is: “I teach people how to make more money.”
Part of the problem is getting to work. I live in the heart of Suffolk. It’s a 2 1/2 hour drive to Heathrow – waiting two hours for the flight – two hours for first flight – wait for second flight – an hour for the second – getting to hotel or Client = a full day; before work… when done = repeat! Eight hour day – I don’t think so… Good old days = 14 – 16 hours…today = maybe, ten – with breaks!
Another minor problem is my feet. I still have the side effects of the Chemo, lingering in my feet which feel like I’m walking on pins and needles – 24/7. This was supposed to leave after six months – NOT. I normally sit four or five times a day with a foot massager for 15 minutes a go… just to try to trick my brain (sometimes with a bit of medicinal assistance.) I am trying an electronic device to alleviate this issue – but, it’s early days to report any real progress. More in a future post…
So, what is my future? In a word – unknown…
I’m living three months at a time…from diagnosis to diagnosis – one day at a time! I still want to work on my book, begin the podcasting, maybe introduce Sales Makers Symposiums – but; definitely re-invent myself in some way. Any ideas??? Let me know. I can tell you this – when you’ve had the ride I’ve recently experienced – you appreciate every day, every conversation you can have with long lost friends and loved ones, every sunset and hope to see the sun rise.
If I had to start now doing what I’ve done – it wouldn’t work…too many things have changed.
I’ve had a good run. I’ve got no real regrets. But, to paraphrase Monty Python and the Holy Grail = I’m not quite dead!
LIVE Today like there’s no tomorrow…Someday – there won’t be…